- yesterday: I noticed how my energy intermingled with the lower branches and leaves of the tree I was standing under while I was waiting for the bus. i did a quick chelation; grounded; centered -- all in the space of time it took to wait for the 43
- yesterday: i had a good job interview at the U
- yesterday: I had a long commute and read several chapters of my book (a Greg Isles suspense/horror thing and very well written). i was calm during the whole ride
- yesterday: things went well with the kids. I made burritos that were really good and had lots of veggies (grass fed beef; refried beans; succotash with soybeans instead of limas; green beans) and the kids ate them. things went according to Plan: Penny had a bath while Sar played on pbskids; then they switched; Sar let me wash his hair without fighting; I read Sar a story; we went to bed peacefully together and then I got up after they were asleep.
- yesterday: I sneaked downstairs and watched Harold and Kumar escape from Guantanamo Bay and it was a guilty pleasure. terribly scatalogical and sophomoric...and I really enjoyed it. don't tell anyone.
- this morning: sar told me about a deep good dream he had in which Papa Jim and Nina (his grandparents) were drowning in a river and he and penny and I saved them
- this morning: the plan karen and i hatched to get the kids out of bed and out the door on time and peacefully--it worked! I got to work on time this morning.
- this morning: one of the guys in the mailroom handed me a poem he had written, about how weakness triumphs over strength and flexibility over rigidity. it reminded me of lao tzu and I said "are you taoist?" and he said "yes". so there are three guys in the mailroom, and one is buddhist and another is taoist. i haven't had any deep talks with the third guy yet.
- the receptionist at the info desk is a closet wiccan. she's 19 & very cool and in some ways far more mature than i am. we talk about candles & stuff.
- dr. malakouti helped me unload cases of paper from the cart. i thought he was doing it out of some macho impulse and told him i could handle it--i'm really strong, i told him. yes, he said. but there are two of us. we can work together. and he re-cast the whole dynamic into a cooperative one rather than a competitive one -- and i learned.
- today: the job interview people invited me back for an interview next week--they're down to two candidates and i'm one of them.
- today: i ran into my old roommate curtis walking around on columbia at 3rd and got a big hug on the way home.
- today: when i got back to karen's house, tara stopped nursing to crawl in my lap and rest her head on my chest and give me a big hug. then she crawled back onto karen's lap and started nursing again. it was nice to be included.
- today: i helped karen make dinner and managed to get the dishwasher loaded and running before i left there.
- tonight: i talked to andrew and was reminded how much i love him.
- tonight: i talked to kevin, who understands how much i struggle with parenting (especially consistency & safety issues with the kids) and he was nonjudgmental and helpful.
and that's a whole lot to be grateful for.